omg !

i just cant believe tis !

tis saturday im going to meet MAXMILLIAN JAMES and sunday im goin to meet JOSHUA JAE ! wat the fvck ! its like tis weekend im meeting them ! i just probably couldnt believe it ! awesome huh ?

so yeah , supposed i meet MAX ( short form of MAXMILLIAN ) last saturday , but unfortunetly , i din go to the training . stupid rite ? hmm .

ouke .

MAX ask for my num ! haha . stupid ouh me . hm . i did gave him my num . ngaeh ! we text each other ! ngeh .

let me admit tis , actually i don LOVE /LIKE anyone ! seriously . im admiting tis . i just wanted to be friend wit them . so yeah . to ppl who don believe i don hav ANY BOYFRIEND , i admit : I DON LOVE / LIKE anyone .

oukeouke . stop up with that !

damn cute !

hey ! here are some max photo's its kinda ugly . cuz i crop the pictures . haha . meet in persom lagi hensem !

this pic blurr . tula buruk !

ouke kaa my citarasa ?! comment me k blanc .

max ! max ! max ! max !

u are so cute ! omg !

u are my athlete !

regreat ! regreat !

its ouky . its ouky . ketinggalan zaman lorh u ! doi ! pigi jauh2 . haha .
actually , max is better than JOSHUA ! max is not my boyfriend . a friend .. not from la salle . not from all saint . not from kk high and so on . he is from somewhere in nowhere . crap . haha .
athlete tuu ! hensem eeeehh ! and baik ehh !
if ican choose what kind of boy i like , i would choose
-> he is an athlete
->older than i am .
->cute ! omg !
->and so onnnnnn .......
crap . crap . crap .
blanc ! u got to belive me ! he's much better than JOSHUA !!!!!!!!
see la if i can find his picture !! gilaa . hot ouh him ! suda laa athlete . gilaa . same lyke me . kembang nii !
sot ouh me !

i love him so MUCH !

stupid ouh me !
i don believe tis ! but i still love him ! stupid ! stupid ! stupid ass-hole me ! ngogong ! ngeh ! hamizah gave me the name ikan jos which stand sor joshua . haha . i knwo . wierd kan ! haha . i love when im NUTZ . haha .
ouke . ouke .
*speechless me .

i MISS him !

ngeh ! i miss him so damn much ! shit-ness is indise me . stupid o kan . urhh ! gila . gila .gila ouh me ! but i hope i can meet him !!



nah . this is joshua and jason .


joshua . ngeh .



i know . weird face .

bah ! bah ! trip laa sana .

although i hate him , but i still like-love him . shit ! shit ! i miss him ouh !
*muah

i stil love him !

i miss yew .
i miss yer smile ..
i miss yew sow damn much !
but y ? yew hurted me lyke tat ? y do yew mess things lyke tis ? i really and nver wan things to mess up ! but then , u messed it up !
anyway , yew shu tell me earlier ! the first day yew text me and ak me y i really wanna dance with yew . and i refusd to answer .but yew kept on forcing me to tell yew the truth . n i DID . yes . i DID .and yew said " i do lyke yew . but i don wan things to happen lyke my bro and sis . " so yeah . i understand .i know wat tats mean . u REJECTED me . and at the same time , u ask me back the same quetions , i REJECTED yew back . ngeh !
the second day , yew suddenly text me and said " im not satisfied about yesterday " .adn i was lyke " wth ? y ? . and he explained . and so on .. then suddently u ask me this quetions ".......(see ! i forgotten bout it . sorry :( )" and i said "huh ?! i thought u were the one who rejected me -.- "and he said "i thought u were the one who rejected me " . and we were both confused . haha . then i 4get wat happen . thus suddenly TER-couple .stupid ! stupid ! (i regret it ! and u were the one who forced me to couple with u ! damn ! stupid ! shit ! )

then on the fifth day , he texted me about 12 somethinbg lyke tat in the afternoon . kept on texting .i a menwhile , i was texting JASON. and so yeah . and at about 4pm lyke tat , i was about to go swimming with my cuzzies . and so we did . then i went home at about 8 something . i was so tired . so i went to my bro room . lying on this bed . was wating for HIM to text me . and i waited till i fall asleep -.- . adn when i woke up , it was 1am something and i quickly check my phone . there were6 msg from JOSHUA .the first msg was

1.)hye .

2.)tmrw ma credit xpired . im so sorry . i don wan to hurt ur feeling .

3.)actually , this whole relationship , i don really wan it . i don wan things to hapen lyke my sis and bro .

4.)im sorry . i don think im a good guy for u cuz deep insidei im a street thug . im sorry .

5.)im trully sorry

6.)tis thing really needs to end . jus forget bout me . im sorry . don need to reply . gudbye .

gawd. i was lyke " wat the hell ! " and none of those msg i replied adn i was very SAD . EXTREMLY SAD !
everyday i tried to forget bout u . n i did . but suddently , ur face , ur smile adn ur voice was on my mind . i was badly hurt ! i felt lyke cursing yew . but i cant . cuz y ? because i felt sorry for u ! but nemine . still hated u . but still lyke u .